Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Mixture in life

While the lecturer is preparing for the lecture,
People slowly streaming into the room,
bringing a mixed spirit into here..

I see a person full of hurts walking in...
Exhausted from the daily toils of life....

I see a person seeking for love...
Having all the hopes of life...

Oh what a diverse mood i see....
In a fallen world of God...
Where people switch between joy and sadness.....

Now we need not sit on the emotional swing anymore...
For we have an almighty, to fill us with everlasting joy....

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Trying too hard to please God??? (version 2)

07/10/2006

Once, there was this man, who became a Christian when he was a kid. Being brought up from a pagan religious background, practicing religions was part of his life. Pagan spiritual manifesting was a norm to him. Hence, when he accepted Christ into his life, all these perspective were naturally brought forward to his new-found faith.

Inevitably, he was highly dedicated to the religion. He strived very hard to be a 'perfect' Christian. He was taught to be a good testimony(example), to memories the verses in the bible etc.. Through all these, he has gained a lot of knowledge of the religion. Unknowing to him, Christianity became a religion of practices where he tried very hard to do the 'right thing'.

As he stayed on in church, his knowledge grew. But, he only knew Christ as a sovereign being. In his mind, he strongly desired to please his Master. Eventually, he even learned that he has to love him. So, he worked hard on it. He strived to love his Almighty God. In situations, he would try hard to do the 'right thing'. He even put in a lot of effort not to sin, even with the 'right intention' of being grateful to the salvation. Lots of effort was also put in to allow God to help him in his situations. Despite all his efforts, he kept failing time and time again-feeling discouraged. Gradually, he picked himself up and tried again, each time putting in more effort.

Over time, this man became very weary. He was very tired. He knew that he has to rest in the LORD, but didn't manage to do it, because he tried too hard to rest. What an irony.... This man thus knew God only theoretically. As a result, many areas of his live started to crumble, bringing him into a state of oppression. He became very discouraged

However, this God is a loving God. He loves this man a lot and does not want him to be in such sorry state. He wanted this man to have a proper relationship with him, instead of a theoretical version. So, in His own time, the loving Father set His precious child free from all his agony.

While driving home one day, this man had a sudden inspiration. This inspiration was so great that he decided to recite it out aloud. The inspiration protrayed God as a loving Father, telling his child this:

Son, I have loved you with an everlasting love..
Before you were formed, I have known you...
Come to me.. Don't work so hard trying to please me..
I just want you to enjoy my presence...
To come into my embrace...

Son, I am still your Father,I still love you...
Even though you may have failed me...
I still love you...I want you to know that I fogive you....
I am still here..
I have never left you...
I will never forsake you...

Come Son,into my rest....
into my loving arms...
All your problems are in my hands....
I will help you solve them all....
No problems are too big for me...
and no problems are too small for me....

I am here son...
Just come to me...
Just rest in my presence...

Son,I want you to know...
I want you to have the best...
I love you...
Even though you are small,
You are still special in my eyes...
You are still my precious son.........

Tears rolled down this man's eyes as the recitation proceeded from his mouth... However, he was not able to accept it. However, the above recitation kept coming back to him.. It was as if that it was finding its ways into this man, while he was resisting it.

Eventually, this man approached his cell leader for prayer. Upon his request, they withdrew into a room for prayer. At the start, the oppression was laying very strongly on him. As the session proceed, there was a struggle within him- a struggle between the almighty God and the opression. Some time later, the oppression eventually left, and peace eventually engulfed him. God has won!!!

As a result, this man felt transferred into a new dimension and he managed to see God from a new perspective. God became so REAL to Him....He could experience His love in such a intimate way. Where His goodness is so real.. Where all the cares of the world dissappeared.. The bible suddenly sprung to life in him...

At last, this man truely understood his faith-built around the love of the Father, so personal and loving.... And he no longer need to work so hard to please Him, because the Father just wants him to enjoy His presence - which was the original intention when He created us.......

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Sugar-coating is good??

I see myself like a jar.

Once in a while, bitter chocolates were poured into the interior. Filling the space with pain and misery. Over time, the chocolate accumulated. Eventually, the chocolate slowly stained the jar, making the jar look stained and unsightly. Thus an object of scorn to the surroundings. People tend to keep a distance from it..

Instead of pouring out the chocolates, I decided to sugar-coat these chocolates into individual compartments. Painting the coatings with colorful colorings. Hoping to make my contents attractive so that I can accepted by the surroundings. It apparently worked, unknowing that my content were still bitter. On the superficial, this jar seems to contain sweets, but whoever digged into the jar usually got disappointed.

As time passes, as more chocolates are poured into the vessel, sugar-coating continued until I became very skillful at it. I thought that I have successfully removed the chocolates- until one day......

My potter, who knows all things decided to subject me to high temperatures. Oh no!!! All my efforts were GONE!!! The sugar coatings melted.. Hot bitter chocolates began to flow again.. Oh no!!! How can my creator do this to me?? How am I going to face the rest with this marred status.. I look so unpreserved!!! I don't understand.... How can you allow me to look so bad!!!... To make matter worst.. He took a hammer and BREAK ME UP!!! I could see myself scattered, with the chocolates spilling all over the place... My life seems like a mess all of a sudden!!! (to-be-continued)

Saturday, October 07, 2006

"Before Alamein we never had a victory. After Alamein we never had a defeat."- Winston Churchill

Before Alamein we never had a victory. After Alamein we never had a defeat.

Am I fighting a war... Where I have to struggle for victory.. Where I keep losing...
When can I win the war??
When will I see victory???
Do I need to wait for my 'Alamein'?

When I strive for victory... I got defeated...
When I work to overcome.. I got overcomed...
And when i tried to force through... I was forced upon...

But when I rest in Him,
I got the VICTORY
I OVERCOME

Taste and see that the LORD is good...
'Before Christ we never had a victory. After Alamein we will never have a defeat.'

Friday, October 06, 2006

My Son...

Son, I have loved you with an everlasting love..
Before you were formed, I have known you...
Come to me.. Don't work so hard trying to please me..
I just want you to enjoy my presence...
To come into my embrace...

Son, I am still your Father,
I still love you...
Even though you may have failed me...
I still love you...
I want you to know that I fogive you....
I am still here..
I will never leave you...
I will never forsake you...

Come Son,
into my rest....
into my loving arms...
All your problems are in my hands....
I will help you solve them all....
No problems are too big for me...
and no problems are too small for me....
I am here son... Just come to me...
Just rest in my presence...

Son,
I want you to know...
I want you to have the best...
I love you...
Even though you are small,
You are still special in my eyes...
You are still my precious son.........

With Love...

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Coming??

i see myself at the alter....
Kneeling down,
Tears rolling down my cheek...
All broken inside....
Full of hurts,
full of pains...

Now, is the majasty coming down??
With all His legions of heavenly being...
Coming to stand by my side...
To wage wars against the tormenting forces??

Now... Should i rest??
After trying so hard??
To let the legions fight on my behalf??
And rest in the cosy embrace of my Dad??

No longer should i feel bad....
For I am not fighting alone anymore....
No longer do i see defeat....
For my father is fighting on my side....
No longer am i being bullied...
For my guardian is here to protect me...

Behold all... and see the Celestial Soldiers coming down to Earth...
Rediating their heavenly light...
Waging a victorious war...
For the One is mighty.........